I'm Leaving

Who says you can't go home???? It is time to get back to my roots my friends.... I am hopeing this aallll goes through. I am Alberta bound. Just like Paul Brandt said.... I am Leaving. that guy knew how i feel at this moment. It is sucky for all my friends as I do not want to leave them.... But sometimes when there is this pull you just have to go with it... Come on hurry..... aint no time for a worring gotta go move on...... just leave the lights on.... grab some clothes set those sights on that four lane road I'mmmmmmmmmmmm GONE.......... Got that get away feeling...... Something better has gotta be better around thissss next turn..... Push that peddle down.... BURN!!!!

Anyway enough of that....... To all of you that care thanks for the prayers and thought.... TO all of you that look at this to see where I am at I am GONE.

Sunday Morning Easter

Listening to my good friend Stephanie and she says that we are not perfect and never will be in comparison to God. We all strive to be but never can be. That sets me up to feel more comfortable with sinning. I know it shouldnt but it kinda does.... Gotta be good right? 

Bought some paint today for my room... .I cannot wait to see how it will turn out. I am hoping well. Bright green and white though. It goes well with my cright orange bike that i want to put above a headboard that i am yet to make lol. I have a lot of things i am yet to make. But just wanting to say hello to everyone and Happy Easter.

God Bless Y'all

Well the Easter season is upon us... All the chocolate and commercialization of it makes most of lose focus a lot of the time. I do Not see my family enough.... Easter I get to see them.... Nothing but the blood, Nothing but the blood of Jesus.... Lets not forget.... I was sitting in my living room waiting for something nothing entirely important and look at the crucifix on the wall... Being catholic we all have them from baptism... what a sight.. we glorify.... A man being killed in most horrific fashion....

We can look and see beauty in it.... I do not look to the electric chair watching someone suffer the same way.... or maybe someone shot..... yet those would do way more just in terms of suffering. When thinking about it you die of suffocation. Eventually to breathe he had to pull himself up by the stakes in his wrists to allow his lungs to fill with air. Pushing up from the stake in his feet..... These gruesome thoughts... This is our father's son......

This is what we are worshiping on this the holiest of weekends. It was this weekend years ago that happened so that we may be given the chance to live forever…. Makes you think what YOU are doing with your life. I know I gotta change some things. I would of not of wanted to witness that. My wish is that this scares you a bit or opens your eyes.... the pictures make us cringe.. Lets not forget that these pictures are still sugar coated to what really happened..... There was no mercy.... But because of this event in history, christians can live forever because of the MERCY of our father.... Lets change and realise what we live for and why.... I know i want to have Jesus living through me.

Thank you father

Rain on me....

That is an awesome feeling the next heavy rain I think I want to feel the brunt of it... Feel it fall on me.... Soak me take all of me like a fool. Just stand out there. Take my soul.... cleanse me wash me.... take all of me I do not mean fool but people would be asking questions. Do you guys no what no direction feels like? DO you really know what just gumping is, like giving it all up... I need someone to pick me up and take me. Lol very dramatic these days. I am not depressed because I am learning to love myself more.... In fact i am happy.

What a feeling. Love my job as I am blessed with a great place to work.... but the working life is all so new to me. Turning a new leaf. New friends rock as i am keeping from falling backwards. Rain on me!! At this time i cannot help but think of baptisim. I guess I should talk to my pastor again... Interesting comcept really, lol Great place for help though. I love using this as my journal. THanks Lyn.

On a diff note, go with some friends and see The Benchwarmers. Yes i was skeptical but i laughed so hard. One of my favorites all time... yes i am saying this better than dumb and dumber. Hahah. anyway Peace to y'all

God Bless Y'all